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I AM FLASH PRO.

November 24, 2009

Or at least I aim to be.

Spent the whole night trying to finish the first 3 scenes of the wardrobe screen interface.
Hell, its really tedious. Its not tough.. but it makes u feel like every minute is made up of 2 secs.
And you just keep going at it and you don’t really wanna stop.
Its like running.. you’ll lose the momentum the minute you decided to pause.

Its already week 8.
I only have 3 more weeks to finish assignments that have yet to be assigned.
How is that going to be possible? But I’m Sabby. Cannot also have to do, have to finish.

I’m finally getting a 90 for ONE of my assignments. Bittersweet.
And it could be going up on the display again! The chocolate packaging one. :D
According to Kenji. YAY!

I love sleeping. Never thought I’d ever say it.
Sleep never meant this much to me before.

I should never have placed my bets on it in the first place.

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What Blue Sky?

November 10, 2009

I hate having good days..
Good days can only get bad.
Bad days can only get worse..
It just doesn’t get any better, does it?

The human brain is capable of thinking way more than it should. Sometimes for a good cause, sometimes.. well.. not so good.

If there should at least be one thing that I can completely call the shots for, have my own say, and not be controlled, it’s going to be my room.
I don’t get to control many things in my life. Let this just be one of none that I can, pls.

Two submissions and a handful of messed up assignments. I need to be less bugged. Debug me.
What am I doing?

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Beautiful Mess

October 21, 2009

My floor would give me high distinction for the collage assignment.

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WHO THE F**K!

October 20, 2009

Who the fuck came up with expectations?
You should already be dead by now.. But still, I want and have to say..
GO AND DIE LA!
!#$@$%#&^$*KNN CBB%#$%!^&%#$!@*&

I have 3 collages due thurs, tmr theres typo2 and i dont have a fucking thing to show Kelvin Barrios and I haven’t done any sketches for Kenji for Thurs’ packaging class and the demographic isn’t done for Friday’s advertising class.

There is only one word to describe my academic status right now:
Mati.

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Stuck In My Head

October 18, 2009

Amy Winehouse’s rendition of Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow.

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And I heard over the radio, its hip to be square.
Haha. Funny.

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Person

October 13, 2009

George Sampson is:

An Inspiration.

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This Isn’t For Real

October 8, 2009

I woke up this morning, way past 10am already.. Duh.. Cause I had my alarm set at 1030am. Haha.
Anyway, it just hit me super randomly that.. at this time of the day, IF there were lesson in the morning, I would have been realllyy late and the lecturer would be wondering why I’m not in class..
And just as I ended that thought, my lecturer, Kenji, sent me an sms, asking me if the class is aware that there is lesson this morning cos no one turned up. And he even joked about how the class must have hated him for having seen him for three modules last sem.

Oh hey, wait a minute… THERE’S LESSON THIS MORNING?! WHY ARE WE TAKING 5 MODULES.. AGAIN?!?!?!?!
WHY?
Thought it was just a mistake on the timetable, stating two advertising modules. One for the batch above ours. I don’t get it… It’s not like the other modules are not intensive enough. Must they do this to us? Must they?

So now we have packaging design too (which i was actually wondering why we don’t have it this semester as earlier confirmed), which means we have 5 modules.. again.. and I only realised it this very sad morning.. I completely blanked out for a good 5 mins. I thought hard about how I’m going to cope. It’s almost like I’ll have to sacrifice all my weekends just to get things done.. Now it feels like the only shimmering light at the end of the tunnel has decided to diminish and then completely fade out. Great. Now my tunnel is pitch dark.

Yeah sure I’m going to make it through.. just like I’ve always done..
It’s just going to be more late nights..
More pulling of the hair..
Writers have writers’ block, designers too have designer’s block k..
Hahaha.

Point is, its going to be hell this semester. Predictably worse than the last..
So.. good luck to me.. to the class and possibly the not up to standard work due to insufficient time.

On a happier note, my Carrie Underwood CD design is being displayed at the lobby of the school.
Unfortunately, they didnt display my lyric book which I thought looks quite nice too. :|
Though it kind of looks a bit rejected being placed at the back, but beats not having it up at all, right?
Haha.

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Rusky Turns 9

October 3, 2009

Tomorrow.

Just a couple of days ago, I was thinking about turning 23.. How that happened? No Idea.
Point is.. it made me realise that being 23 means.. I’ve past 10 years of my life since secondary 1.. And I’ll probably still be living in that memory.
10 years. Swooping us by like that.

Damn it.
Does reality have to be this cruel?

Gilmore Girls.
They are killing me. The addiction..
Haha. I read something somewhere about the Gilmore Girls. Remember it being on the cover of the DVD but nevermind..
It said: Life’s Short, Talk Fast.
HAHA. Funny. If I could ever refer life to film like they do.. You would need subtitles and still wouldn’t understand half of what I’m talking about.

Attending a wedding dinner tonight. Was at their tea ceremony earlier this afternoon.
And she’s probably the first person i know in my generation getting married..
Now we have overflowing number of 21st birthdays parties..
Soon enough, we’d be attending numerous weddings of our friends too. That’s the feeling I get. But of course, we won’t be getting married on the same year. That would be absolutely insane. Hahaha.

Andddd.. caught Kumar on Wednesday. The drag queen’s hilarious! Like always.
Knows exactly what kind of issues to laugh at and poke fun of. Though the group of girls sitting behind us werent exactly the kind of people you want to sit infront of. Their laughter pierces.
It was a good one hour. Real good. Apart from the dry coughs.

Back to school Monday.
Goodness.

Nap Time.

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YIPPEEEE but not quite.

September 26, 2009

Haha.
Fwa. Another 11 weeks just went by like that.
And I’m really glad I’ve finally started on my hols cause honestly, I was beginning to lose my concentration already.
Thinking about my hols wasn’t the best motivation to get quality work done.

YESSAH! Shiok or whattttt..

Couple of things to do for this break..
Sleep well.
WASH MY SHOES..
Clear my unwanted shoes for new pairs I’m going get from Aussie.
Need to think about storage for my school stuff and overflowing no. of bags and more bags to come. :D (WOOOO!!)
Create something out of the oven. (Was thinking of stuffed chicken.. the one with cheese and ham in it.. what do you call that?)
Get the wall shelf up.
Exercise and perspire like never before.
Buy my neutrogena rainbath shower gel..
Hmmm.. Wipe out dust..
RELAX ONE CORNER..
Rent/Buy Gilmore Girls and watch it until I happy. :)
Alter my dresses.
Don’t fall sick..

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A Piece of Me.

September 8, 2009

Before I embark on another journey on work till no end, I’d like to exercise a bit of my fingers.

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Baz Luhrmann says
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.

There’s always someone saying something about life, isn’t it?
Haha.

For 15 years of a remembered life, so many things have changed.
Right down from having weekly gatherings with the cousins, supper after the adults’ late night mahjong marathon, group trekking to bukit timah hill, picnics at the park, morning delifrance breakfast on sundays, occasional bungalow stays with the Laus.. to.. getting drenched in rain water puddles at the playground. The memories of the early years of my life were filled with so much fun and simply joys we only feel now. Of course things have to change.. we’re all grown up, the number of people gathered at Blk 454 over the weekends have significantly reduced.. I wouldn’t say its a sad thing.. because we build new memories and smile back on the old..
Another 15 years down, I’ll be looking back on now.. feeling the same nostalgia, thinking about building new memories and smiling back on this period of my life. From primary school, to secondary.. to poly.. to mica.. I remember being the happiest when I was in East View. But the whole treasured memory of what I had then is slowly disappearing. I’m kind of afraid the only thing I’ll remember of it is that I was happy, but not remembering what I was happy about.. I don’t want my happy memories to be slowly based on my imagination..

We gain many things along the way.. we meet people.. experience positive and negative emotions.
we lose things.. a once KIT agreed friendship.. to occasional hellos online..

But changes are inevitable, right? They mould us, they change us..
Nothing’s ever going to be the same forever and ever and ever.
Even my relationship with my parents have changed over the years.
But I wouldn’t say if its a good change or bad. It’s just a change..
Some changes are not necessarily always negative, I guess.
As long as we’re able to take things in stride, I believe we’ll get along with life just fine.

Although we gain, we lose, we’re happy, we’re sad, we adapt, we change.. we all end up at the same end point.
It’s what and how we bring it there..
I want my life graph to look like an impossible mess. It has to look so whirled up that when I look at it, I’m not going to understand a thing but still end up smiling.

It doesn’t matter anymore whether we made a right or wrong choice.. Or if we made a mistake and regretted it.. more importantly, we have to learn to let go of some things in order to move along and move on. I’ve made an uncountable amount of mistakes in my life, and I’m sure everyone else has their own setbacks as well.. We just need to understand that everything happens for a reason. And although sometimes we might die not knowing the reason.. it is useless and pointless to harbour on these negative thoughts because it isn’t going to make our lives any easier or happier.

We’ll always be missing something..
We’ll always be trying to remember other things..
Someone dear is going to leave us someday..
So if that’s what it’s going to be.. then shouldn’t we cherish and treasure everything that we have every minute our life?

Bas Luhrmann also said..
Do one thing every day that scares you.

Then he says..
Sing.

And that’s exactly what I’m going to do now alongside my assignments.