Before I embark on another journey on work till no end, I’d like to exercise a bit of my fingers.
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Baz Luhrmann says
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.
There’s always someone saying something about life, isn’t it?
Haha.
For 15 years of a remembered life, so many things have changed.
Right down from having weekly gatherings with the cousins, supper after the adults’ late night mahjong marathon, group trekking to bukit timah hill, picnics at the park, morning delifrance breakfast on sundays, occasional bungalow stays with the Laus.. to.. getting drenched in rain water puddles at the playground. The memories of the early years of my life were filled with so much fun and simply joys we only feel now. Of course things have to change.. we’re all grown up, the number of people gathered at Blk 454 over the weekends have significantly reduced.. I wouldn’t say its a sad thing.. because we build new memories and smile back on the old..
Another 15 years down, I’ll be looking back on now.. feeling the same nostalgia, thinking about building new memories and smiling back on this period of my life. From primary school, to secondary.. to poly.. to mica.. I remember being the happiest when I was in East View. But the whole treasured memory of what I had then is slowly disappearing. I’m kind of afraid the only thing I’ll remember of it is that I was happy, but not remembering what I was happy about.. I don’t want my happy memories to be slowly based on my imagination..
We gain many things along the way.. we meet people.. experience positive and negative emotions.
we lose things.. a once KIT agreed friendship.. to occasional hellos online..
But changes are inevitable, right? They mould us, they change us..
Nothing’s ever going to be the same forever and ever and ever.
Even my relationship with my parents have changed over the years.
But I wouldn’t say if its a good change or bad. It’s just a change..
Some changes are not necessarily always negative, I guess.
As long as we’re able to take things in stride, I believe we’ll get along with life just fine.
Although we gain, we lose, we’re happy, we’re sad, we adapt, we change.. we all end up at the same end point.
It’s what and how we bring it there..
I want my life graph to look like an impossible mess. It has to look so whirled up that when I look at it, I’m not going to understand a thing but still end up smiling.
It doesn’t matter anymore whether we made a right or wrong choice.. Or if we made a mistake and regretted it.. more importantly, we have to learn to let go of some things in order to move along and move on. I’ve made an uncountable amount of mistakes in my life, and I’m sure everyone else has their own setbacks as well.. We just need to understand that everything happens for a reason. And although sometimes we might die not knowing the reason.. it is useless and pointless to harbour on these negative thoughts because it isn’t going to make our lives any easier or happier.
We’ll always be missing something..
We’ll always be trying to remember other things..
Someone dear is going to leave us someday..
So if that’s what it’s going to be.. then shouldn’t we cherish and treasure everything that we have every minute our life?
Bas Luhrmann also said..
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Then he says..
Sing.
And that’s exactly what I’m going to do now alongside my assignments.
